Wednesday, October 27, 2010


"she told me relationship is another form of entertainment" (a friend 2010)

Buckle up and sit still ! It is going to be tough week ! Trust me dear friend.

I took almost 3 years to get over it. 3 months ago, I fell in love again just to find out recently that it was a masquerade of words.

Emotions are robust ! It might hurt to the very core and to the manliest cord in you. You'd shed tears and sleep through just pretty much everything. But it shan't fail you eventually.

How the face changes............. so put up a face, smile, wear lotion and lip balm and walk on !

You will be just fine...just fine, I promise.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Ballad of The Dove

I faham. I selalu faham. Just how stupid I was for not letting myself to admit it.

Maybe "[I'll] worth much more after I'm a goner"

Breathe Breathe


Tuesday, October 12, 2010


I am freaking you out ?

Sunday, October 10, 2010

It leads nowhere

Chasing pavement is ain't always a simple thing to do.

Try as I might but the choices ain't mine.

Because you say stuffs and never listen.

One day, you'll get yourself.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


Ketawa macam biasa. Riang tapi tak gembira.

The thought comes crossing anyway.

Kenapa dia buat macam ni ?

Sesak hati aku.


Tuesday, October 5, 2010

please don't go

dia sooo bukan type aku. Tp aku sayang dia. Aku sayang sangat2.I finally found someone and dia, effortlessly kept me up late at night, buat aku rasa happy.

Every night aku akan tug in dia. Stayed there all night, keeping company. Keep dia warm. Sebab dia selalu sakit, so aku pun selalu risau. Aku cuba every single time with every single effort to make dia happy. Sometimes, it worked sometimes it didn't. Still, we were happy. I was happy.

Aku sayang dia. Dia cakap " I want you". Repeatedly, dia cakap "please don't let me fall". Dia cakap yang dia would be very glad if I stay because dia tngah busy "shaping the heart to love me". So I did. I stayed. I stayed as I promised.

Fallen, unnoticed.

Then, distance came. Said would miss all the well wishes, I waited. Coldness started to sneak in. Silence filled in the gap. Dia busy. Chasing after the dream will the best will. I was proud and still am. One last call was unannounced and I felt the excitement had gone.

Carelessness left my heart sore.

Dia cakap "It's hard to break someone's heart when your heart has broken once or twice but it is a bad thing to someone false hope. Knowing that all along that he is not the one you would want to be with"

So i asked "where does that put me then ? "

"we were happy as fren"

Oh, okay. Thorn into pieces, I stayed, laughing, instead.

Daun mula luruh. How Fall has started.