Saturday, December 18, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Buckle up and sit still ! It is going to be tough week ! Trust me dear friend.
I took almost 3 years to get over it. 3 months ago, I fell in love again just to find out recently that it was a masquerade of words.
Emotions are robust ! It might hurt to the very core and to the manliest cord in you. You'd shed tears and sleep through just pretty much everything. But it shan't fail you eventually.
How the face changes............. so put up a face, smile, wear lotion and lip balm and walk on !
You will be just fine...just fine, I promise.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Every night aku akan tug in dia. Stayed there all night, keeping company. Keep dia warm. Sebab dia selalu sakit, so aku pun selalu risau. Aku cuba every single time with every single effort to make dia happy. Sometimes, it worked sometimes it didn't. Still, we were happy. I was happy.
Aku sayang dia. Dia cakap " I want you". Repeatedly, dia cakap "please don't let me fall". Dia cakap yang dia would be very glad if I stay because dia tngah busy "shaping the heart to love me". So I did. I stayed. I stayed as I promised.
Then, distance came. Said would miss all the well wishes, I waited. Coldness started to sneak in. Silence filled in the gap. Dia busy. Chasing after the dream will the best will. I was proud and still am. One last call was unannounced and I felt the excitement had gone.
Carelessness left my heart sore.
Dia cakap "It's hard to break someone's heart when your heart has broken once or twice but it is a bad thing to someone false hope. Knowing that all along that he is not the one you would want to be with"
So i asked "where does that put me then ? "
"we were happy as fren"
Oh, okay. Thorn into pieces, I stayed, laughing, instead.
Daun mula luruh. How Fall has started.
Friday, September 3, 2010
"Saya sebenarnya takut awak marahkan saya"
"Kadang2 saya terbabas, tapi mcmana pun saya mesti ucap Good Night Sleep Tight sebab saya memang selalu ingatkan awak. Saya tahu awak takan balas sebab awak pun dah tidur"
Ada masa awak buat saya sedih sangat bila awak ignore dan tolak saya ketepi dalam banyak perkara. Bila saya cuma nak kongsi sesuatu tapi awak takut orang lain tahu. Ingat tak lagi the two things awak dah janji pada saya, sampai skrg tak ada pun.
Dah lebih 3 kali saya minta, dan setiap itu awak kata okay, okay, okay. Saya takkan minta lebih dari 3 kali.
Kadang-kadang, saya terkilan awak buat saya macam nie.
Tapi saya tahu, awak sangat sibuk kan ? Hati saya sejuk bila awak datang minta maaf. Saya tahu awak tak bermaksud pun. Kan ? Kan ?
mungkin saya tak cukup bagus untuk awak ?
mungkin saya salah. Salah sebab mahu lebih bila apa yang awak ada hanya cukup untuk seadanya ?
tapi cuma satu pesan saya
"satunya harta saya awak dah pegang, saya harap awak jaga elok-elok"
"awak awak...saya penat. Biar saya berehat dulu"
Selamat tinggal buat sekarang.
*picisan mana hanya kira maknanya sahaja
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
PENCARIAN MERATAH HIDUP
BINGKISAN DAMAI KASTURI
Monday, June 7, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Monday, May 31, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Finally I reckon, I deserve better; not another tear will drop fall. Shall I drive away and commence a smile? Realize I hadn’t for awhile. Almost a dime throughout these days in these 3 years I’ve been putting up countenance of a poker player. I don’t want to do this anymore. I despise myself playing a rend-hearted being.
The two digit number that has been knocking on the front door in 2010 really strucks the manly cord in me somewhere. Ah, not to mention the whole gamut is fanatical over it.
What a shame.
I have friends! What the fuck on this earth do I need a well establish companionship? For what? So the heart could be kaput into pieces once again? First scar is always the deepest and how surprising enough I am just an inch away from the scent of the beloved.
Friends keep nagging, lecturer wants to hook me up with some purdy ladies from the block and there I sense a gist of truth in this whole mania.
"No gang no outing no crabbing no talking no shit"
3 years folks! Well almost. For almost three years this numbness refuses to go away and I am not right. It is a denial I’ve existed in.
"the intented plagiarism in this context ain't even half of the poignancy within and is a definite statuette of a rend-hearted friend"
Boys. Im sad. There is more than all the poignancy I've embroidered here.
How I wish my "classmates" Beethoven and Voltaire are here to comfort.
For you,you,you and only you, who will I left my heart with when I'll be with you in this short and uncertain future, please
"oh continue to love me ~~ never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved
Beethoven's 3rd love letter